I'm confused ?! Whats Lovee?

There are three guys I've been with that I thought were the "one". Well the first, we were like best friends and we were forced to break up becausee i likee lost my v-card to him. The second, was like love at first site. Hah, we connected like crazy. I was new at this school and out of everyone, I deffinitely noticed him, as well as Damian... The hottest guy I've ever seen..[other than Matt Dirrito from Pop Evil]. I instantly wanted him. He was with his Girllllfriendd though. Well we started dating. I read his mind beforee,lmao. [The second guy.] We dated for about 6 months total and broke up i think 5 times. [We only dated for a few days at one point.] It was like I couldn't live with him but I couldn't live without him. Well a lot had happened outside of "us" before it was officially over.. While we were broken up for a month, one of the things that happened was that Damian wanted to hang out... and of course, when he asked me if I wanted to ****, I couldnt' resist. (Best sex everr!) I didn't think we would date. But I thought he'd still talk to me... /: Anyway, he had a girlfriend.. hahah. Pretty much, I drastically changed; I ended up not wanting to get attached and I had a thresum with some randomish hott guy with my best friend. Then the 2nd one and I started dating again.I cheated- for the first time,.couldn't handle the guilt..I think I forced myself to NOT feel attached to him, and told him we had never loved and it was lust to say the least. He at first talked me out of breaking up with him...two days later he texted me "your right." and began dating Gabby, who he'd been cheating on me with and is still with now. I was having fun being single for about a month, then Damian sort of came to me saying he thinks he's in love with me. We dated... for over a month, which actually seemed like a long time. He broke up with me for the girlfriend he'd had for I think a year. I'm still in love with him... I don't understand why he'd tel me he loves me if he didn't.. He easily won her back.. So it's not like he just wanted me for sex when he could've gotten soem from her.. Well I'm confused because I don't know who i love,what love is, and who I'm supposed to be with.. i feel like i've known all of them in a previous life. I could easily have the First guy, he's still in love with me. The second guy, I could probably win over. I've done it before, easily.. Damian, if I found a way to get a hold of him, Maybe ??Probably not.. But, I'd try, if I knew which guy I wanted, I would try for it. I don't know who I want though, and I don't even know if they actually loved me. What do you think??????? Do you think it's possible to have multiple soulmates?? Lol :P