Y do i feel lyk this?

I'm starting 2 loose faith tht i'm gonna find a guy thtll luv me lyk I want him 2. Each guy I fall in luv w/ never luvs me back. I used 2 wake up screaming (it's quietly) but i scream & cry. I was also suisidal, I'd try suiside & I even cut myself & I have a small scar on my left shin 2 prove it. Now I'm addicted 2 My Chemical Romance b/c their music makes me feel better & takes my mind & torn up heart off of it. I want luv so much, but I can never get it! I try not 2 act desparate, but I cant hold in all this misery any longer! WHERE IS HE!!!!!!! I NEED HIM NOW!!!!!!!!!!! I'M DYING ON THE INSYD!!!!!!!!!!!