Suicidal feelings after losing the guy of my dreams....Have you ever felt this way?

Theres this Man i met who was exactly everything and MORE than what i could dream of having in a partner, to the point where i thought god answered all my prayers, everything about his being i loved even his imperfections i loved, even those little details about a person, comments, jokes, every action made me happy, & creeped out in a good way in the sense that it was everything ive ever wanted. especially his spirit and his heart, he was like a dream come true, i wouldnt change anything about him, not a single thing. he fit my personality so well, i couldnt believe that this was real. Long story short, hes doesnt like me anymore because i kinda acted a little clingy, but i learned. Im just so embarrased cuz i messed it up!! & i shudnt have done those mistakes or else i would have been with him (its been 4 months since weve talked) & now i just have to face the truth that it was not meant to be and all i do i cry my eyes out everyday. i absolutely thought we were soulmates, i am truly shooken and depressed & especially at myself for being so dumb & ruining it. I'm severely depressed because i came across something so amazing, i cant put into words, almost like a dream come true, only to find out its gone, i have no love for life anymore. i dont want anyone else, I honestly in my heart doubt there is anyone else like him, im afraid cuz so many people say for years they date but still no one compaired to that one person, im scared of always being unhappy ...... please help me out...